My posts have sucked lately. "Snow, rain, can I fix it?, blah, blah, blah". Is it me or was I funnier last year? Even when it was warm in January I was into it, and there was a lot going on that seemed worth writing about. Maybe it was the newness of it all. But, things are different this year in a lot of ways:
The rink has been mentally draining and time consuming; and there has been little use of it when it's been somewhat usable. Not much fun so far.
Deb is out of a job on February 15th. bcgi used to be something she loved, but it's fair to say it's not anymore. I worry about the future, but I really just want her to be happy in what she does.
Time to be a grown up and figure out what I want to do, or don't want to do, with my life. The 'stay at home' thing isn't so necessary anymore as the kids are older, more independent, and busy. But, at the same time, we have precious years left with the kids and I want to be here for them. I'm sure some folks think I'm a scofflaw (not really relevant but I like that word) or lazy. Screw them. And, I decided I am turning the offer of underwear model down.
Danny's hockey season is fun, but man is it a lot - of time, energy, and wondering if I even make a difference out there. Compounding that is Danny's frustration with all the losses, and his 'lack' of scoring. He still scores, it's just harder this year for him (no sympathy from me -it's not supposed to be easy!). "It's not all about winning" is very true. But, I counter that with "losing all the time sucks." I also like the word "sucks". There is no wondering what you mean when you use it.
I'm not crying in my beer - I keep it far enough away on the end table. It's just that I know thousands of people (if not 5 or 10 folks) read my blog on a daily basis and I think they want something better.
So if you want shiney, happy, rink stories or philosophical b.s. all the time, you should know something - sometimes this blog is just gonna suck.
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You have disappointed all Deb's friends by turning down that underwear model gig!
Bern
Scott I know how you feel. My oldest daughter is in Michigan attending Grand Valley State and I only see her on holidays now. Since the divorce, the house is empty except for every other weekend when the little one comes home. My girlfriend lives about 20 miles or so on the other side of the city and she unfortunately has a real job (not like me) so I only see her on the weekends. This year I truly questioned why I am building the rink. The only answer is; it’s what I do in the winter. The girlfriend and ex-wife tell me if I didn’t build the rink, I would just be miserable, it’s my hobby.
What I did do this year is streamline my operations, boards, plastic and the lights. If I get a chance to have the family party (weather always permitting) I will throw up some Christmas lights and put the teki torches out. But that can always be done last minute.
I whis you and Deb the best.
Jerry
Naperville
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